I don’t understand how I continuously make bad decision in men. One was just fucked up in the head and the next an alcoholic. I should have paid more attention with Greg, I saw the signs I just didn’t want to start over again. I finally just had to call it off today and asked him to leave and now I am worried if financially I will be ok in the next few months with how much I already spent on the wedding. I really just want him to get help, go to AA, something. He has to do it for himself, you can’t make changes for other people or it won’t last. So now here I am, sitting here with my life in shambles once again because a man just came in and fucked it up like a bull in a china shop. I am just going to hope that he gets better and figures out his stuff. The last one that figured out his stuff just figured out he wanted to be with someone else instead.